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Post by ironguardian on Nov 3, 2008 11:47:40 GMT -5
I'm at a rather large risk of breaking down and regressing, and possibly quite willingly too.
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Post by The Centurion on Nov 3, 2008 11:50:29 GMT -5
I'm at a rather large risk of breaking down and regressing, and possibly quite willingly too. Well now that youve seen the impending problem you should be able to start there //end Dan's therapy session. Will be praying for you bro. I hope things smooth out.
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Post by graveforsaken on Nov 3, 2008 17:54:52 GMT -5
You have my prayers IG. Like Centurion says, now that you've seen the problem, you should be able to put measures in place to solve it.
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Post by ironguardian on Nov 3, 2008 20:44:19 GMT -5
You would think... it's going to take me some time to get over this... or to at least want to get over this...
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Post by jeffdls on Nov 5, 2008 11:57:55 GMT -5
Still praying for ya, bro.
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Post by ironguardian on Nov 5, 2008 12:11:08 GMT -5
Hmmm, I think I've managed to convince myself that its not the end of the world, and that things are not as they seem, and that the other party is mistaken, and not all is lost.... which of course is setting me up for a further fall in the future... however, if that is what it takes to get me through the worst of it until I can build up some self-confidence in my own worth... delusional I shall be ;D
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Post by rockphoenix on Nov 6, 2008 7:21:35 GMT -5
Hey IG if you ever need someone to talk to i may be your man Ask those like Vaughan or Elias that know or at least knew me when i say i do understand i am not just offering cheap lip service i REALLY MEAN IT. You know me from here and also facebook and myspace so the offer is there dude. God Bless you Bro.
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Post by ironguardian on Nov 6, 2008 9:57:19 GMT -5
Thanks mate, I appreciate the offer.
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Post by graveforsaken on Nov 6, 2008 16:30:06 GMT -5
I can vouch for phoenix IG. We may have had our differences over the years, but he is one of my oldest and closest friends.
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Post by rockphoenix on Nov 6, 2008 21:46:01 GMT -5
Cheers Vaughan for the vote of confidence.
I won't go into details especially here but you know i believe the best training one can have is experience if and when trying to help a fellow Christian out .
To steal a line i heard once that my memory fails me where at this time " i smell like smoke because i have been through the fire "
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Post by ironguardian on Nov 11, 2008 9:52:41 GMT -5
I'm seriously screwed up right now... things have just gone from bad to worse..
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Post by jeffdls on Nov 11, 2008 14:52:43 GMT -5
Lifting you up, right now.
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Post by ironguardian on Nov 15, 2008 22:13:59 GMT -5
Ok, got an appointment with my pastor tomorrow.
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Post by harder2hate on Nov 15, 2008 23:57:33 GMT -5
will definatly be praying for you man
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Post by ironguardian on Nov 26, 2008 7:11:49 GMT -5
I've been getting worse, not better. Crying a fair amount each day :/
I really miss her.
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Post by The Centurion on Nov 26, 2008 10:03:16 GMT -5
Hang in there man, dont let the depression get to you. When you start feeling down, listen to some Messiah Prophet to cheer you up!
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Post by ironguardian on Nov 26, 2008 19:27:46 GMT -5
Seeing the medical faculty at university today, see what my options are for next year. Already checked with the scholarship, and they'll give me another year if the uni does.
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Post by ironguardian on Nov 27, 2008 8:45:06 GMT -5
Well, had the meeting... and went about how I expected it to... there are a couple of options, but neither are really too hopeful.
My psychiatrist was rather worried about me, as I've gone slowly downhill the last few months, and rapidly downhill the last few weeks. Its the wrong direction... we're going to give it a few more weeks before looking into changing meds, ECT, or hospitalisation again.
I want her back with me, to be able to hold her, and assure her that everything will be ok... even though I know it wont be...
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Post by The Centurion on Nov 28, 2008 17:54:21 GMT -5
Bro im not saying this to be mean, but the only way your gonna get thru this is one step at a time. By breathing in and out over and over again and putting one foot in front of the other one until the pain is so old you wont feel it anymore. Prayer helps too, but Im sure everyone has told you that already. I'll still be praying though.
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Post by ironguardian on Nov 28, 2008 22:58:35 GMT -5
yeah... little steps... which suck, as each little step is insignificant and unrewarding on its own. I will get better though, it'll just take a lot of time.
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